In spring, we had a big problem–or rather, a problem of being too small.
Our house is fairly small (~850 sq. ft.), and using our spare bedroom for meeting with clients was not ideal. Convenient, yes, but all the constant parade of strangers walking through the living room to the office began suck. It got so hard that I snapped–the only thing I could do to maintain my self preservation was to come to a full stop, cut ties, and breathe.
I was surprised when my husband suggested we turn our outside storage room into an office with an outside entrance. This seems like the obvious solution to our previous problem–it would alleviate the problem feeling like we have a home inside a business instead of the opposite.
I have some very mixed feelings about this–what if I can’t get back into business mode again? Do I go back to the bridal shop and offer my name for referrals? What if they tell me to go screw myself? What if I get back to a place where it consumes my life? What if I can’t get into it and my husband resents that he put in so much work for nothing? What if it all blows up again?
I still feel broken. My confidence took such a hit in March and April, and I still don’t feel as if I have found my footing.
As my husband pointed out (when I bored him to death again with my insecurities) it is an extra room. Even if it’s original purpose goes away, we can still use it for storage, a guest room, a work out room, etc. The duct work and electrical is all hooked up, so it’s a matter of fixing drywall, replacing the garage door, and cleaning it up. We can do the work ourselves, so the overall cost will be marginal.
I’ll update as it continues.